“This earth is nothing but movies to me. Just like the beam of a motion picture. So is everything made of shadow and light. That’s what we are. Light and shadows of the Lord. Nothing else than that. There’s one purpose. To get to the beam.”
~ Yogananda Paramahansa – Autobiography of a Yogi, Chapter 30
“A wise man, recognizing that the world is but an illusion, does not act as if it is real, so he escapes the suffering.”
“This whole creation is essentially subjective, and the dream is the theater where the dreamer is at once: scene, actor, prompter, stage manager, author, audience, and critic.”
~ Carl Gustav Jung
“I regard consciousness as fundamental.
I regard matter as derivative from consciousness.
We cannot get behind consciousness.
Everything that we talk about, everything that we regard as existing, postulates consciousness.”
~ Max Planck, Nobel Prize-winning physicist
“Objective reality does not exist” …. “the universe is fundamentally a gigantic … hologram”
~ David Bohm, quantum physicist
Twenty five years ago in India, my beloved Guruji, Sri Dhyanyogi Madhusudandasji, asked that I write and publish spiritual memoirs so as to inspire many others. To honor Guruji’s request I have been writing and posting spiritual memoirs on-line.
Recently I’ve begun to feel that I should soon finish the memoirs. [After the finished memoirs are posted on line, they will be consolidated and republished in e-book and print versions by the Perennial Wisdom Foundation.]
More than ever before, I realize that inevitable death of our mortal bodies can happen at any time; and that we can never know when we will enjoy our last breath. So it seems wise to live as if each day may be our last.
During childhood my entire life mostly seemed very dreamlike, and – like my nocturnal dreams – I’ve forgotten most of it.
After adolescence and until midlife, my Earth life became my sole “reality”, and I self identified only with my physical body, its thoughts and story, and with the seemingly solid physical world. Then following a profoundly unforgettable midlife spiritual awakening I more and more self-identified as eternal spirit as well as my mortal body, and my life gradually has become more dreamlike again.
Over thirty five years ago, while driving home to San Francisco from a retreat with my beloved Guruji, Dhyanyogi Madhusudandas, I was suddenly taken out of my body and into a very subtle higher spiritual realm from which this world appeared as a mere play of consciousness – a sort of cosmic joke – where every appearance and happening was causally pre-determined by Cosmic Consciousness.
That experience was life-changing and unforgettable, and has always remained in my subconscious awareness – though it often has been difficult to mindfully remember it in daily life, especially when viewing with compassion, and sometimes with tears, the disharmony and terrible suffering of Humankind and other lifeforms in this crazy world.
Yet, when in deeply detached states of awareness, I can remember that what appears to be a stable, tangible, visible, audible world, is an illusion – samsara; that ‘reality isn’t real’, but a kaleidoscopic and holographic theater of the mind.
But now, especially since the life-threatening taxi rundown event three years ago, my entire life again often seems like a movie, in which I am playing a detached role as retired lawyer and spiritual writer. Yet I keep looking for – and often finding – potential lessons and blessings in every noteworthy experience.
Is it possible to live in this impermanent world of inevitable suffering, without responding emotionally and compassionately to the immense miseries and apparent injustices experienced everywhere?
Apart from being “spaced out” or in deep meditative states, or being psychopathic or sociopathic, can anyone who has awakened from the illusion of our apparent separateness live detached from ubiquitous misery and suffering?
Recently I was reminded that even Indian Holy Man and Avatar, Sri Ramakrishna Paramhansa, suffered bereavements on deaths of a nephew, older brother, and beloved attendant, even while experiencing elevated states of consciousness. Similarly Swami Paramahansa Yogananda experienced significant emotional trauma following a betrayal and lawsuit by his former trusted childhood best friend and assistant, Dhirananda.
Yet, Yogananda explained in Autobiography of a Yogi, Chapter 30, his view that: “This earth is nothing but movies to me. Just like the beam of a motion picture. So is everything made of shadow and light. That’s what we are. Light and shadows of the Lord. Nothing else than that. There’s one purpose. To get to the beam.”
But aren’t we often autonomically emotional on viewing movies and plays?
I have been blessed with unforgettable fleeting ‘peek’ spiritual experiences demonstrating that earth life is a ‘light show’ – an illusory play of consciousness. Yet, I am often deeply moved by the insanity and suffering now rife on our precious planet.
In my student days I learned of maniacs like Hitler in Nazi Germany, Mao in Communist China, Stalin in the U.S.S.R., Pol Pot and the Khmer Rouge in Cambodia and numerous other dictators who were then bestially causing untold murders and misery. Naively, I then believed that my country the USA, and its Western allies, represented only virtues of good and democratic decency, and that after the demise of World War II era psychopaths, the world would be restored to a utopian age of peace and prosperity. But I was wrong.
Especially beginning with the legally unprecedented Supreme Court selection of George W. Bush as 43rd US President following patently flawed Florida elections, I realized that the USA had become a new kind of dictatorship – a corporate “fascist” state, as first defined in Italian by Benito Mussolini, who said:
“Fascism should more properly be called corporatism because it is the merger of state and corporate power.”
Like Professor Howard Zinn, I began feeling that I was living in an ‘occupied country’; that the so called “American dream” of Ronald Reagan, et.al. had become a global nightmare of a rapacious empire threatening all life on Earth.
But not even during the Bush, Jr. regime did I ever imagine a US president like Donald Trump. Nor did I realize that even a Democratic status quo candidate like Hillary Clinton foreshadowed perpetuation of merely a different kind of corporate fascism.
Now it is difficult for me to imagine what will happen to the world under Trump’s administation. So I am often impelled to remember that Life is a Light Show; that everything we see or seem is but a dream within a dream – that this world is “nothing but movies”.
Whatever happens in this impermanent illusory world of inevitable suffering, may we ever remember our oneness with all earth-life, and may we ever lovingly and compassionately aspire and act for world peace and happiness.
And so may it be!